Christmas essense of mine!!!!!
If im going to describe the celebration of christmas of mine,for me it is beyond description. It is beyond description in the sense that i really dont feel the real meaning of christmas. The atmosphere of hapiness and joyfulness because of the gift or shall we say the meaning of christmas does not come out.
I am an incomplete person,an illigitimate child begging for love, not only during christmas yet everyday. Eversince i was not able to celebrate my christmas with my whole family. Maybe because of money matter or anything. I need a real essense of christmas not only for materials things.
This christmas i used to go in church and prayed. Asking the God to guide me and asking his help to shift my mind into positive side. And no to the thing that, this was the saddest christmas of my life.